I can see you're trying to flatter me out of ever learning to plug your damn phone in for yourself. I see what you're doing.
[And yet he will continue doing it. As it's a good excuse to go see Flins every day. ]
Hrm. I can't quite put my finger on the why yet. He had a real rough childhood, not my story to tell, but I expect that played a real heavy role in why he's so scared to open himself up to the possibility that he's allowed to care for people. And that they're allowed to care for him, too.
It's for sure self-destructive, but in my experience, people like that need to come to that on their own. You can show them that you're there for them, that you understand 'em - but the steps forward to healing have gotta be their own. He reminds me of someone I knew in my past life.
[It's the reminders of Angel Dust that make him more inclined to put up with Zevran's bullshit, really. It touches a part of his heart he tends to keep separate. Protected. He can't remember if he ever helped Angel get fully free of his demons - his memories around the man start to get hazy around the time Vox started his bullshit. But it makes him want to help Zevran. Maybe he can do something in this life.]
Me too, though. Much as he'd fuckin' deny it, he does deserve it.
...How is that even a hint? That's just the lottery numbers.
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Date: 2026-01-25 02:10 am (UTC)[And yet he will continue doing it. As it's a good excuse to go see Flins every day. ]
Hrm. I can't quite put my finger on the why yet. He had a real rough childhood, not my story to tell, but I expect that played a real heavy role in why he's so scared to open himself up to the possibility that he's allowed to care for people. And that they're allowed to care for him, too.
It's for sure self-destructive, but in my experience, people like that need to come to that on their own. You can show them that you're there for them, that you understand 'em - but the steps forward to healing have gotta be their own. He reminds me of someone I knew in my past life.
[It's the reminders of Angel Dust that make him more inclined to put up with Zevran's bullshit, really. It touches a part of his heart he tends to keep separate. Protected. He can't remember if he ever helped Angel get fully free of his demons - his memories around the man start to get hazy around the time Vox started his bullshit. But it makes him want to help Zevran. Maybe he can do something in this life.]
Me too, though. Much as he'd fuckin' deny it, he does deserve it.
...How is that even a hint? That's just the lottery numbers.